Somehow, over the last couple of days, my head was cleared and I'm not thinking in spasms. It's great, really, because that means I can be human again and have normal contact with others without freaking them the hell out. I like being able to express myself correctly, without all the noise. Of course, I have no idea what set me straight and if this happens once or twice more, I won't know how to fix it. Time? Patience? Talking about it? Thinking about it? Endless issues that upon hindsight have ended?
The excitement is building. I'm happy about this. Really enthusiastically happy. I want to kiss someone until my lungs burn, alas, I have no one for that, but it doesn't mean the yearning isn't there. I don't know when it happened either. I just thought randomly 'wow, I can think' and had to scurry to the computer and test it out. Even with the person who brought the insane habits around, I'm precise. I'm a robot and data is being taken. I love this.
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