I don't have room for feeling, apparently.

Myer-Briggs has a personality test more commonly known as the 'MBTI'. When you're a student in high school you're given this as an in-class assignment to figure out your personality type and some major careers it thinks you would do best in or should pursue. There's a four letter sequence you receive and a total of eight letters to choose from. The eight letters are I/E, S/N, T/F, P/J. For each set, you can only get one letter. They translate to: Introvert/Extrovert, Sensing/Intuitive, Thinking/Feeling, Perceive/Judge.

This test you take required you answer a lot of random situation questions and based on your choice of a), b), c), or e), you are given a type. The first time, I got 'ENTP', but I felt like I was half and half on one of my answers, so I switched it and received 'INTJ'. The constant is 'Intuitive Thinker'. During a conversation with a close friend of mine, I was explaining that I think a lot, but not about anything worthwhile, nothing with depth or importance. While she thought about major issues, or even small things but she had great detail in her thought processes. I was shocked, because she was an INFP, which means she feels more than she thinks, and given how much she thinks, she must feel a LOT. So she points out to me that if I don't think very much and what not, and I got 'Thinker', how much does that tell you I feel?

This was a concerning discovery and I always knew I was emotionally retarded, but this kind of just pointed out to what extent. My most common thoughts are;

'What's the point?' and
'If I told you out loud that I don't care, would you stop talking?'

I'm concerned about my future, except, not really. I'm not concerned. It's just a vague concept that resembles 'I wonder if I'll ever have an intimate relationship if I can't bring myself to care about someone enough to 'deal' with them on a daily basis'. I might undergo some hypno-therapy to see if I can find a way to cope with not loving people, or at least pin-point when I stopped.