Sure, I can put that in the song.

I say:
I liked this guy, right? But he says he wants someone who is broken. And while, yes, a lot of shit has happened to me, I'm definitely stable in some way- and who wants to call themself faulty anyway? It's like someone calling you fake. Which he did. But whatever. I mean- saying you're not real. And- I don't like the concept of leaving myself open to a person, just so I can be hurt. So, it's just, he tells me he likes me back, but I'm not what he needs. How do you respond to that? I said 'oh, okay. I hope you find it then' and he's angry because I didn't fight for it. What's wrong with wanting someone you care about to be happy? Boys confuse me. My first boyfriend told me we'd still be together if I had cried when he mentioned breaking up. Do you like it when people cry? Is that normal?

And so, I cut open my stomach and leave my guts hanging out and for what? So they can back away in disgust? No one cares what I think, or why I do what I do. It's like- why care about me if nothing really matters besides yourself?

I'm ranting. I don't talk about my issues. And so this is strange. Sorry. I've taken up knitting. Because it's something productive and people don't ask you questions about your well-being when they see you do it. Instead they ask 'What're you making?' and I respond 'Leg warmers'.

I'm not sad, even. I'm just so angry. Is that normal? Natural, even?

Usually, I just shrug things off or bury them so I don't get hurt. But I hate this. People are stupid, and blind, and they don't know what they want. I want to be important. I want to be valued. I don't mind being distanced as long as I'm respected, but both and neither- damn it. How 'bout you? What do you want?

[] iFloof [] ∮ [Ruru is the sheep to my rabbit, the bull to my goat. <3] ∮[I think its called foods library.] says: SOmeone who loves video games, snuggling, and cares about me and wont cheat on me =/

I say:
I tried dating a girl, and realized I don't like spooning. Or- perhaps it was just with her? It's weird though. Maybe it's normal? I don't like hands on my chest. Or, do you suppose, that's something you get used to? Or maybe you never do. Like, how the inside of your thigh is ticklish. Or that lower area, beneath the belly button but above the hips? That's ticklish too. Or- that's the only place I'm ticklish. Did you ever get into tickle fights as a kid? To where, it -was- fun, but now that you can't breath, it hurts and must stop. I'm talking a lot. I bet you didn't expect that. Er... Typing. Usually I'm anal retentive and bitch about something because I don't know what else to say. Or- I don't want to be nice and then have you get upset at me for some reason. Maybe I should just be bordering sane every time we chat.

I liked this Australian guy. Because. I like the noise that bones make when sloppy wet, torn up skin, bleeding knuckles hit teeth. And he agreed. That'd never happened before. People always say I'm sick and- hey, I want to stab a person to see how hard it is for the knife to pierce through fat. I'm emotionally retarded. Did you know? I can't retain feelings.

And every line is blurred for me. I don't know what is okay and what isn;t. I don't know when I'm allowed or not allowed to do something. When should I laugh? Cry? Be a man (figuratively)

So, I do them at the wrong times. I laugh at funerals and cry in the middle of a party.

When people ask me if I'm okay, I don't know how to answer. Are they asking to be polite, or do they really want to know? So I say ''Oh, I'm okay, I guess' and they usually drop it. I lie to my friends because it doesn't matter if I'm honest. No one cares. I lie when I don't have to

I always make things seem better than they are.

I had my gall bladder removed. And I laughed about it when I told people. The stones clogged the hole and ended up killing it. Six hours more and I would be dead right now. That shit is serious business.

When I was young, I have a bad history with bastard guys, and so I avoid men in general. I was molested a lot. And, I remember passing out because I nearly suffocated on a cock that was shoved down my eleven year old throat. I have big trust issues. I have fears that I'll be left because of something petty.

So why bother liking people at all? It makes you feel so good to like someone and be liked back. That's why. Plus, you can't always help it.

And I'm so tired of the run-around. It's like- if you like me just fucking say it, what's with all the games? Batting eyelashes, or all the stupid asshole comments- are they needed? Is there some reason that people need to do that shit? Is it human nature? Is it the species' mating dance? What the hell happened to all the honest people? And here I am asking that. The one who lies for no reason. I mean- lying. Why not? People piss me off.

Alright, what else can I complain about to your poor soul? How about those people who think they know you because they've gone through similar events? Or say 'I feel you'? One event doesn't define a person, right? And so, it's like- A friend of mine was raped recently, and when I was younger, so was I. And so, she talks to me like she understands completely, brings it up a lot, makes it seem like this one event makes her who she is. Now she's scared of all men. 'Are they gonna rape me?' and then she always says 'you know?' but only to me. Because we're rape sisters now. It pisses me off. I don't like being reminded of it. It's not like I judge men because of it- yes, I'm completely aware of how powerless I can be compared to one, but my life did not end at that moment. There are really nice guys in the world. Everywhere. And there are total douches. But didn't everyone know that to begin with? Just like there are really sweet girls and then there are bitches.

And why do ex's always think they have a right to you? Like, somehow, because you knew eachother in that way, they have some exclusive priveledge?

[] iFloof [] ∮ [Ruru is the sheep to my rabbit, the bull to my goat. <3] ∮[I think its called foods library.] says:
>>; Yer so cute xD

I say:
Thank you. I didn't expect that while complaining.

[] iFloof [] ∮ [Ruru is the sheep to my rabbit, the bull to my goat. <3] ∮[I think its called foods library.] says:
Well it's true.

I say:
Whenever you post, I laugh at the 'I think its called foods library'. I like that show. I was thinking that if they were real- I would have trained to become one of their bad-ass snipers. And my brother wondered why I wouldn't want to date Nathan, and- honestly, everyone around them gets killed- except their manager, themselves, and their snipers.

[] iFloof [] ∮ [Ruru is the sheep to my rabbit, the bull to my goat. <3] ∮[I think its called foods library.] says:
I ALWAYS crack up on the episode where they adopt the fat kid. Because at the end they are all trying to figure out what to do with him and Nathan is like "Guys..I think we need to build a space helicopter."

I say:
Cause, they're like 'I think we know what we must do' and then he says the most random fucking thing. And of course they take him to the recently dubbed 'kitty island' place.

[] iFloof [] ∮ [Ruru is the sheep to my rabbit, the bull to my goat. <3] ∮[I think its called foods library.] says:
xD RELEASE THE KITTIES

I say:
"He'll be okay, he's really fat"

[] iFloof [] ∮ [Ruru is the sheep to my rabbit, the bull to my goat. <3] ∮[I think its called foods library.] says:
I LOVE the part when Toki and Skwisgaar go to feed him. And Skwisgaar is like Dammit you fat tub of shit.....WE love you. xD Show cracks me up so much.

I say: Or when the doctor tells them they shouldn't feed him candy and they're like "oh, but he loves chocolate' and so they try to have him neutered instead.

[] iFloof [] ∮ [Ruru is the sheep to my rabbit, the bull to my goat. <3] ∮[I think its called foods library.] says:
Okay, I'll change my name just for you. YES xD

[] iFloof [] [I think its called foods library.] [IT'S A GROCERY STORE YOU DOUCHEBAGS! I'm sorry about 'douchebags,'] says:
Ok there xD