Contradict me.

So, my mind is all over the place and the only time I ever have a chance to put abnything in order is when I'm in an argument. In which case, it gets scrambled anyway, jumping from subject to subject.

We should both be happy. That's what it boils down to. I want friends, because that's normal and me being a whore isn't an excuse. It's a cop-out. What's the accomplishment of being the most important to me, if there's only one or two other people in my life? Friends also let me talk and they care about all the shit I say that you don't. It's that simple. You asked me not to get friends just because I'm lonely, but I'm not. I'm getting them because you're not being my friend and I need those.

You need them too. That's why you have them. You flirt with your friends and you have fun and hang out with them, and I'm jealous of your friends because you don't do those things with me. Just because you got me doesn't mean you get to stop doing all the mundane stuff like joking around with me. You used to be excited to see me, you used to make time for me, and we used to be able to laugh together. I don't feel like myself anymore. I feel like a worn down version 8.0 of Open Office that didn't need to be upgraded in the first place.

I'm loyal.
I was happy with you to begin with.
We talked and got along.

But now--

I'm unfaithful?
We're unhappy more than happy?
We don't talk much, mainly because it starts arguments.

Let's just try to trust each other. I'm such a guilty person that anything I do wrong I would tell you about anyway. I would never cheat. I like to think you wouldn't either.

We like each other. We're just too sensitive to each other that we get offended by everything.

Ultimately it comes down to this.

I am in love with you.
I like having friends.
I like having hobbies that include other people. Like art collaberations, and talking about books I've read. Playing video games together. I can do those things with you, but you not wanting to do them doesn't mean I don't want to still.
I like helping people-- it makes me feel useful. I don't like touching them, or sharing anything but advice with them-- I don't want to connect on a deeper level, I just want to help them. Sometimes I wish people would do the same for me.
I want to tutor people. Not because I'm a whore, but because I like helping, I like teaching. I don't like lots of people, I hate most of them, so I don't want to help everyone. Just the ones who couldn't get help otherwise.
I wish you would try and talk to my friends. Maybe then you'd accept them.
I want to do everything with you, but you're busy and one day I will be, too. So I want you to schedule in time for me.
I want to hang out with just you sometimes. No phone, no computer, no other people. Just the two of us. Where I can enjoy just you.

I love you. But we do have things to work on. We probably always will. I want to work on trust. Us trusting each other.